Turbulant times

26Jan09

Fuck me. I knew I didn’t want to go home. I’m sitting on southwest flight 1714 to Oakland and my body is shaking. Not only because our plane is currntly shaking and dropping altitude and regaining and my heart is going to explode from fear and my body is cold because the temperature is freezing and my head hurts and my heart is sad. I just want to touch ground so bad right now. And I wish it was back in Burbank. I wish I didn’t have to leave. But now I just wish the air would clear up and I didn’t feel as if we were going 4 wheeling In a fucking 737 jet. Fuck this. But in case anything happens I have this beautiful brochure showing me to duck and cover and embrace my seat cushion and inhale through my oxygen mask. And I think I would have a heart attack before even thinking of that stuff. Haha. But at least it’s not as bad as my flight out of London. I know I’ll be fine because that shit was insane and our plane was all over the place. Anyways.

About my weekend. Random trip. Booked my flight two hours before take off. Rushed to airport. Before I realized it I was touchdown in Burbank and tommy and garrett were there to pick me up. (shhhh a little secret. I wanted him to be alone. I had some ideas haha) but I was so fucking happy to see him. With his smile that is kind of a shy I don’t want you to see how much I am really smiling when I look at you in my mirror kinda smile. It made me smile. This whole weekend did. Well until now. But something about being there. I feel really good. Oh and btw tommy if you actually read my blog LOL. Bomb!! I win even from 24000 feet in the air. Haha your scissors got nothing on me. Hahaha. Smiles. I gotta keep remembering the shit that made me smile. Not the tear that burned my eyes as the car drove away an I was sitting in the cold wishing life wasn’t happening an I could just stay.

Oh so some funny stories and random updates from this weekend since I seem to leave weird updates on here. I have an invisible maclaren in my invisible world. Um. Tommy has a tiger in a stable that eats children. Whitneys secret happened to get exposed ( whit I love you. It’s only tommy!! If you read this you might yell at me. Remember the love Dawg)hmm what else. Garretts amazing cough. Guys arguing about lickig assholes and their own. Weird. Little dogs. In n out. A lot of in n out. Smiles. Getting pushed off the bed. Other amazing things which are not going on my blog. sylvester. More smiles. Chillin in the hood. Measuring noses. Playing in slippers and starting slipper fights. Damn. I just gotta remember all this and it will keep my smile.

All in all. I had a great weekend. Now if this turbulence would fuck off and die. I would feel much better about my life right now. Minus the fact im sad. At least I would feel safe and not on the edge of my seat. I guess everyhing happens for a reason I am realizing. I have turbulence to keep my mind off being sad. Im sad because i left something happy. I’m happy because I took a chance. Haha. But really take every opportunity. Or else who knows what could have happened?

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